I'M BACK!!

Not that I REALLY left. Well, no actually I did. I first started this blog just after new years and all was good. Motivation was high. But I have found that since Papa Patch went back to work (23rd Jan), I just dont seem to have the time to sit down on my computer for long enough to be able to read through everyones blog, as well as write my own. PLUS do everything else I need to do in the day with Baby Patch, and work, and exercise. And somewhere in there some social time for myself and for my relationship with Papa Patch.

Also Ive had some issues at home I've been dealing with lately. I feel like I'm so emotionally exhausted that I dont have space for anything else at the moment. Also, when I get stressed all I want to do is eat, which makes it all extra hard! Damn emotional eating!! But I'm hoping that things are slowly getting sorted and I can get back into a headspace where I'm focused again.

As if thats not all hard enough, my body is still trying to work out the whole hypothyroidism thing and adjust to the meds Ive been put on. My levels are starting to balance out, and hopefuly we will have them totally worked out. AND blood tests have just shown low iron levels. I'm booked in with a dr next week to get an iron & B12 infusion (gotta love a quick fix!!).

Now i know all of the above are just excuses. Give me one of them and I will overcome it, but when you chuck them all in together, along with some broken sleep due to Baby Patch teething and waking in the night, and it all seems to hard! Thankfully Ive managed to keep it together enough so that I haven't put on any weight, but I haven't lost any recently either.

So what am I going to do about it all??  Well uni starts back next week, which will mean I am going to have to be super organised. BUT it also means that I will actually have routine back in my life!! I'm looking forward to having a routine, and sticking to it! Baby patch is enrolled in day care 4 days a week which will free up a little space for me to be able to think about myself again.

PLUS i have another great motivation :) My gorgeous photographer friend has just told me this morning that when I reach my goal weight (67kgs) she will do a glamour shoot for me, for free!! how cool is she !?! shes a great photographer, so anyone in hamilton new zealand should check out here work here. This glamour shoot is going to stay at the forefront of my mind. I AM GOING TO DO IT!!

To start getting back into it i went to the gym on Monday, total fail!! well no actually it wasnt a fail, it was a damn good workout. but i havent been able to walk for the 2 days since coz my muscles are SO SORE!!! i had my first netball training last night and my goodness i struggled to move haha. luckily we didnt do a whole lot, more just introducing the team etc and sorting out uniforms. to try and help get my blood pumping i booked myself into going to an RPM class this morning at the gym. But ofcourse Baby patch chooses last night (i know he really didnt CHOOSE it) as a good night to be sick :( so i was up every 1/2 to him between 12 and 4 as he was throwing up. numerous bedding changes, pajama changes and lots of cuddles later and I was finally back to bed. and my alarm was due to go off in an hour. NO FREAKN WAY was i getting up!!

so right now i feel like a zombie. i cant walk properly coz my muscles are so tender and my eyes are hanging out of my head. and Baby Patch is super tired too. ooh the fun!! hoping to go for a walk later to get some fresh air into both of us. and some blood pumping to move some salt from my muscles. thats the plan anyway.

talk again soon, i promise!! x