A fresh start

I would call it a new start, but its not really. Its been in the back of my mind all along. My weight, my lack of exercise, my lack of balance in life is never far from my thoughts. But I had to get to a point where I could put the thought and effort into really doing it again.

The last couple of years since I have posted have seen A LOT of changes in my life. Over two years ago was my last bit of writing and since then I have left the father of my child, renewed an old love, married my forever guy, changed jobs, been promoted several times, moved to a new town, been on an amazing 5 week holiday overseas and watched my little boy grow into the coolest toddler. BUT within that time exercise has fallen to next to nothing, eating has been uncontrolled, and the weight has piled on. I am ashamed to say that I am now heavier than what I was at 9 months pregnant. And here we are.....life around me is great. But me, I dont feel great. I dont feel like me. I feel like I'm just a shell of me. Hiding who I really am. Why? Im not sure. To protect myself maybe. To deal with emotions from past hurt, Or just because I've lost me while worrying about everyone else.

So in a bid to find my inner light, I'm trying to concentrate on me and what I enjoy. As hard as it is sometimes to fit in things that make you happy, its hugely important, for your sanity and inner bliss. Over the next day or so I'm going to write some goals, short and long terms, in a bid to get back to a place where I feel free. Where I can feel my inner light shining brighter and brighter. Until next time something to ponder, what gives you your inner bliss??